Come right in, the Morozovs say, Pasha should be upstairs.
Hes upstairs all right, bleeding out on his bed after an attempted suicide.
Afterward, Alexei finds his sons note: He is sorry… but he cannot live in America.
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Back in the Jennings neighborhood, Philip spots Stan moving his mysterious girlfriend Renee into his house.
A pipe burst in her building, and she needs a place to stay.
Thats going to take time, Philip says.
About a month, Stan tells him with a grin.
Maybe two if Im lucky.
She has to be here for some reason.
Philip thinks shes a spy.
What do you think would happen if they have kids, and sheisone of us?
Paige thinks she has it bad?
Pffft…
Pasha is doing better, but will be in the hospital for a few weeks.
His mother will be taking him back to Moscow, but Alexei will be staying.
Too scared, Philip explains.
Didnt we send someone to say that it wouldnt be a problem?
Alexei doesnt believe it.
Philip cant really believe all of this himself.
If Pasha died… he says.
Tuans tough, but hes just a kid.
Like we were, Elizabeth answers.
She wishes she could take Tuan back to Moscow when they quit.
The hockey player/Soviet courier is told there is a problem with his answers, but he persists.
It turns out he has no problems; that was a ruse.
He passes with flying colors.
No sign of any deception.
Now its a question of whether they believe the test.
Nobody is going to roll out a red carpet for him, she says.
On the way home, Philip and Elizabeth speculate about Paige helping Henry to adjust in Russia.
Itll be good… without all this s on our backs, Elizabeth says.
We begin bombing in five minutes.
Back in actual Russia, Martha is practicing her Russian and watching schoolkids play in a park.
Sort of like her.
We want you to be happy, the translator says.
Martha looks at the kids, especially a little girl named Olya.
There are tears in her eyes.
Maybe there is happiness to be found together.
Pasha seems happy to be heading back to the Soviet Union.
Im sorry, man, Tuan says of their suicide plan.
It was a stupid idea.
It worked, Pasha tells him.
Downstairs, his mother blames herself for not seeing the signs of his depression and attempt on his life.
Doctors there are not so good.
Philip tries to pressure him to go back with them.
No… Alexei says.
Not after the way I leave.
If I go back, they throw me into jail to die.
Tuan responds with outrage.
That means they have nothing to hold over him anymore not that they were doing that anyway.
They protected him, but he ratted on them instead.
We were concerned Pasha would die, Philip says, as patient as a real father.
But he didnt, Tuan says.
I told you he wouldnt.
Let me talk to him for a few minutes, Elizabeth says.
What I said was the truth.
Youre not going to make it.
What do you mean?
Its too hard, the work we do, to do it alone.
One day it will all come crashing down.
You need someone, Tuan, a partner.
To do this with.
To get through it with.
Make them send you someone.
Youre not going, Philip says.
This family stays together.
Hes planning his goodbye; she may (or may not) be planning his surprise party.
We see Philip and Stan playing racquetball.
Hey, its Renee, stepping in for a game.
The lyrics seem meaningful here.
She wanders the house, her beautiful, well-stocked American house.
After the food pantry, Paige walks home.
She takes a shortcut through the parking lot where she watched her mother kill a would-be mugger.
I might be moving to Japan, he says.
This is the first Kim has heard about this plan.
Its so far away.
I dont know what Im going to do without you.
Youre going to be fine.
Ive seen you grow and change.
You have a great relationship with your father now.
Youre going to have a great life, he says.
He tears her a paper towel to dry her tears.
Later, hes listening to the tape he lifted from her CIA fathers briefcase.
Elizabeth interrupts to ask about the fight with Henry.
Its rough, and Paige gets a bloody lip.
So big they may not let him go home and abandon this operation.
He needs to go for a drive.
Philip stands at the rivers edge, holding the tape.
Maybe it needs to disappear.
So he and his family can do the same.
He has some news for her.
Im thinking of leaving my job.
Not the bureau, but the thing Im working on.
I dont want to do it anymore, the kind of work Im doing.
Hes worried about Sofia, and the risks shes facing.
He sees Nina in her.
He doesnt want that guilt anymore.
Renee tells him hes a good person.
Not many people care like you do.
I know youve been feeling stressed.
If you dont do it, who will?
Philip comes home and finds Paige icing her lip.
He apologizes for what theyve done.
Sheshould have had a normal life, he says.
Upstairs, he asks Elizabeth to go sit with him somewhere.
I just took a drive.
The recording I got from Kimmy…
I was going to get rid of it.
Just pretend like it never happened.
I still think maybe that would be better, but…
He tells her about Kimmys fathers promotion.
Maybe they can find someone else to get the recordings from Kimmy, he says.
But he doesnt trust that.
And hes torn about whether to remain in their jobs.
Its not just me having a hard time.
Its you, too.
Were allowed to have a life.
Elizabeth has an admission.
Cant let go of her life as a spy or cant let go of her life as an American?
The head of the Soviet Division?
