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On Feb, 4, Kristen Stewart arrived atSaturday Night Livefor rehearsal.
It did not go well.
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I couldnt get out one line, says Stewart, who was hosting for the first time.
I was so nervous.
Just being on stage with the whole crewand that cast is epicand everyone was killing it immediately.
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I felt like they were all thinking, This poor girl is going to crash and burn.'
But when the show went live that night, it was a confident Stewart whostrode on stage.
Because Im hostingSNL, and Im, like, so gay, dude.
If they would have me, Id go back every year.
She seems amused by the buzz her coming out announcement garnered.
Ive been talking about it for a really long time!
Ive lived pretty openly.
Indeed, shes been romantically linked to several women, including singer Annie Clark (a.k.a.
St. Vincent) and, most recently, model Stella Maxwell.
Her declaration shouldnt have been a big deal, and yet…
I guess because it was simple and straightforward.
Just Im so gay, dude.'
She pauses, and smiles.
In that moment, to make it normal and cool and completely unashamed?
It felt really cool.
Its a pleasure to see Stewart so at ease with herself and her place in the world.
This was not always the case.
She was accused of being aloof, sullen, cooler-than-thou.
Presentation wasnt my strong suit, she says drily.
Ive observed other shy people have similar reactions it can come off as hard or uninvested or something.
Its an understandable but not totally fair assessment.
Stewart he understands; its other stars who mystify him.
The people who thrive in the incredibly public forum must be very unusual, he adds.
Its an odd kind of person, really.
I read that s and there wasnt one word of it I didnt understand, Stewart says.
I was in the same position.
I really discovered the scope of what she can do during filming.
I continually realize just how much more there is to her talent.
In many scenes her only acting partner is a series of text messages from a cell phone.
(BTW: Stewart can text really,reallyfast.
Honestly, people were amazed, she says.)
I was really scared of this movie, she says.
Her character is just the most lonely person Ive ever played.
The hours were long and the experience wasnt easy, and Stewart clearly loved it.
Every scene was 800 pounds, she says gleefully.
This film in many ways belongs to Kristen, Assayas says.
I was directing it from the outside, but she was directing it from within.
She may be doing it from without soon enough.
She hopes to tackle a feature in the future, maybe something shes written herself.
I dont think theres a huge separation from acting and directing for me, she says.
I come at it with the same intention.
Im pretty obsessed with the process of how things are put together.
Getting older surely helps.
This is the year of ideas being translated into action, she says.
Ive always had ideas and poems and things where I want to dothisor drawthat.
Im writing, Im figuring it out.
After the first call and who knows what the f will happen you take the first step.
And Ive started walking.
